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Beyond Spiritual Seeking: Finding The Real "I" 

This week, I want to explore a profound shift in consciousness that many of us encounter on our healing journey: the realisation that even our spiritual seeking can become another form of externalisation—another way of looking outside ourselves for answers that can only be found within. 

As one client beautifully expressed during a recent session: "I realised that I keep thinking I don't know things. Therefore, I have to reach out and be guided. But what if I already have the tools to see where it takes me?" 

This moment of awareness marks a critical turning point in our spiritual evolution. It's the recognition that while guidance and support are valuable, our deepest wisdom comes from within. The journey isn't about finding answers outside ourselves but about reclaiming the sovereign knowing that has always been our birthright. 

The Quantum Reality of Now 

Many spiritual traditions speak of multiple timelines, past lives, and alternative dimensions. While these concepts can provide initial frameworks for understanding our experiences, they can also become traps that keep us looking everywhere except the one place where true transformation happens: right here, right now. 

As I shared with a client who was exploring multiple timelines: "The only true timeline is where our consciousness has chosen to reside, which is presently this timeline. All others are an illusion and a fractal of this timeline." 

This may sound radical, but consider the implications: If our consciousness in this present moment is the only "real I," then every choice we make, every pattern we heal, and every piece of ourselves we reclaim in the here and now automatically transforms all other expressions of our being across all space and time. 

The Program of Externalisation 

At the core of most human suffering is what I call "the program of externalisation"—the belief that what we seek (safety, validation, love, purpose, meaning) exists outside ourselves and must be obtained from external sources. 

This program manifests in countless ways:

1. Financial Externalisation 

   When we believe that money will solve our deepest problems or that financial success will heal our sense of unworthiness, we're caught in financial externalisation.

   One client had a profound insight about a major investment loss: "It wasn't so much that I was holding on to the money. I was holding on to the fact that I failed in my intuition. I failed in thinking that I knew best... I truly was grasping at straws, wherever I could find some sense of self that I could believe in because everything else felt like it was falling apart around me."

   This pattern often has roots in our childhood experiences with money. If you grew up watching a parent gamble away resources or struggle financially, you may have internalised beliefs about money as a source of both salvation and betrayal.

2. Relational Externalisation 

   When we look to others to complete us, validate us, or make us feel safe, we're caught in relational externalisation. 

   True sovereignty in relationships looks like what another client described: "The reason why I'm very relaxed is because I'm in control of my life. If I want something, I do something. If I don't like something, I don't do it. I don't externalise anymore. It's my choices. So there's nothing that you could do that could make me feel the way that I felt before because I realise it's got nothing to do with you. It's about my own agency." 

3. Spiritual Externalisation 

   Perhaps most subtly, when we believe that our answers lie in another dimension, timeline, or spiritual practice rather than in our present experience, we're caught in spiritual externalisation. 

   This manifests as constantly seeking the next spiritual teaching, modality, or experience that will "finally" bring us home to ourselves—not realising that we've been home all along. 

The Ultimate Liberation 

The most beautiful paradox of sovereignty is that when we stop seeking completion outside ourselves, we become capable of truly authentic connection. When we no longer need others to validate our worth, heal our wounds, or make us feel safe, we can relate to them from a place of wholeness rather than need. 

As one client described after doing this work: "Had I not been here a year ago, I would not be here today. I would be in a completely different life. We would definitely be fighting a divorce that would be horrible. This has completely shifted my reality and my world. And what happens outside of me is merely just outside of me. It's my reality that I'm creating for me that is creating this space for me today." 

This is the ultimate liberation—not an escape from the human experience, but a full embodiment of it. Not a transcendence of our challenges, but a transformation of our relationship to them. Not a perfect life without difficulties, but a sovereign presence that can meet whatever arises with wisdom, compassion, and creative power. 

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The Path to Sovereignty 

The journey from externalisation to sovereignty isn't about abandoning relationships, financial stability, or spiritual exploration. Rather, it's about transforming our relationship to these aspects of life so that they become expressions of our wholeness rather than attempts to fill a perceived lack. 

"This is the only true reality that we have right now. Your presence in a physical body in this space-time dimension is truth—it's the real I." 

Your wounds aren't just painful feelings—they're portals to understanding the true nature of existence.